Happy!

Happy is a very wonderful thing that could happen to anyone. It makes one's life sparkling and full of joy. But are you really happy with your life? 100% sure. Am I happy? I think i'm happy but I'm not content. What the hell it means anyway? That means i'm not totally happy. I said I'm happy but essentially I'm not happy at all. It's really hard to content oneself. Everyone has their own way of sourcing for their happiness.

A friend of mine recently broke up with his bf. Both of them decided to call it quits after meeting the bf's parents. Normally, meet the parents implied a big step in any relationship. That means the parents somehow approved the relationship and not the other way around. That's kinda weird. It's supposed to be a first step towards any couple's happiness. Getting your ma and pa to approve your relationship.

Of course, my friend reacted pretty well at first with the break up. But i'm so shock that they decided to call it quit so soon. Such test of love should never be a hindrance if one were to persevere and have faith in the relationship. The thing with our society is that they still think leading a normal life would lead to everyone's happiness. It would make everyone happy.

Are they really happy? Do normal couple really happy? I beg to differ. If they are happy, why there are so many divorces now. If they are so happy, why do husbands and wives 'eat out' / makan luar? If they are so content with their normal life, why they neglect and abuse the kids? trust me, if you ask any married people now whether they are really happy with their life now, most of them would say maybe.

i dun care about their happiness or otherwise. i care about my own happiness. i wanna be happy. i want that kinda feeling when you are just contented with everything that you have. but i'm not. it's just so damned hard. I just wanna be happy!

Why it's so hard?

Why it is so hard to find a decent guy these days? I just need someone who is understanding. Not ultra or super sensitive or overly sensitive. Not a hunk (just an ordinary average joe will do). Not knowing what they want. Not a parasite. Not a money boy. Not materialistic. Why it's so hard to find these kind of guys these days? Do they not exist anymore? I'm just confused.

I began to know two guys lately. But we haven't met in person. Just sms chat and online chat. But what puzzled me is the fact that they seemed to be lovey dovey now and emotional even before we met. They are even jealous and cemburu tak tentu pasal for no apparent reason. Hello,,,, we haven't even met.. What were they thinking? Plus, they said, they are looking for friends. Since when friends can become jealous?

I just don't get these kind of people. I'm not as hot as they are. They can have all the hot guys if they want. I've been telling them the same thing. "You are hot. Why can't you date someone who is just as hot as you?"

Entahlah. I'm just confused right now. I am a man of principles,. I don't do long distance relationship. I won't declare until i know that person well enough. To declare as a couple not even before we meet in person is ridiculous. Utter foolishness. I need to meet the guy in person. Get to know him more in person and not just via sms chat and online chat. I will not take that risk. that's why i made it to clear to whomever on their intention or goal. I always ask them what they are looking for? Sex? Fun? Friend? LTR?

If they are looking for LTR, then i will get to know him and go out on a date etc. I can only declare if both of us feels that we have chemistry.

I'm a kinda straight forward person. At my age now, I don't want to waste my time for emotional roller coaster rides. That will just take my time off. At my age now, time is of essence. So, why it's so hard for me to find a decent, simple, average look guy, with no dramas, etc? Why it's so hard to find these kind of person?

Ada apa dengan Cheese?

Cheese? I'm not referring to cheese. But i'm referring to Chinese guys. Hehehe!!! Lately, I have the hots for Chi guys. I dunno why. Maybe it's a sign. Maybe 2010 is about changing my taste buds. Maybe i shud taste other food other than belacan. I shud try dim sum. Probably I shud try dating guys other than Malay guys. Especially since I got my hearts broken twice by 2 Malay guys (my 2 exes).

Of coz I did have sex with Chi guys before. And that's about it. Purely sexual. Nothing much. I should consider dating Chinese-looking Malay guys also. Yup. Why not? I surely made a lovely and unique couple especially since I look so brown and my partner looks so fair. As in F&B - fair and brown. Hehehe!!! Berangan lah pulak. So far, I have no prospects. No calon. The Chi guy whom I dated last week tu pun macam tak menjadi.

Well, I dunno why I like Chi guy. Probably the skin. Fair vs. Brown. Or probably because of the Muhibbah thing. Very 1 Malaysia ok. Or probably because of the commitment thing. My friend told me that Chi guys are more committed more than the Malays coz he did have a Chi bf before this. I dunno. Well, I just have to wait and see then. See who will be my new bf?

Only time will tell.

Haven't met him yet!!!

It's been a while since I went out on a date with a guy. Yesterday, I met a Chinese guy at KL Sentral. He's 38yo. Cute. Look young for his age. very fair. Stylo. About the same height as me. It felt awkward at first. But we managed to get along pretty well. But that's all about it. I guess that's the issues of every first date. You will never know whether the date would turn out great, good, or bad, or worst.


I am quite 'season' when it comes to dating. Having met a number of people on a date. But there's always expectation whenever you go out on a date. You expect the date to be perfect. But, in reality, most of the dates are not. far from perfect. I'm not sure how much longer I would be dating. Or be in this dating game. Am I too old for it? Maybe. Am I tired of doing it? Maybe not coz I'm the type of guy who always bounced back from any misadventures or any unfortunates.

I will be doing it. Until I have found him. For now, I haven't met him yet.

Aku bosan

It's been a while since my last post. Lama betul. My last post was in Nov 2009. What happened to me since then? Well, i'm still single and not necessarily sane. Have a lil bit of amnesia from time to time. Lost weight a lil bit. Date-less. What else? Not rich yet. still struggling with my life, my career, my love life. Still feel like a loser. Why i can't be like other people who have everything.

They have a wonderful and loving partner. They have a good career. I seem to be run out of luck. Even the ugliest of the fags can have a cute boyfriend, why can't I? Why????????????? My career seemed to be on a downhill. I have never been demotivated ever. My creative flairs are of no use. People hate me for being outspoken or at least giving a good idea. Takkan nak makan gaji buta?

I dunno what to do. I dun even have people asking me out for a date. Or even getting to know more about me. Or wanting to know me even more. Or even asking me out for a drink or coffee. All I get was sexual demands. More sexual demands. I'm not sick of sex. But too much sex would do me no good for finding a relationship. I can never have relationship with the regular shag buddies. It's just not in my book.

Aku bosan. I'm tired of this life that I am in. I'm afraid i will do drastic measure. I've been known to do unpredictable things. I dun want to do a stupid thing (s) just because I frustrated with life. God, help me please. Give me strength to face the challenges ahead. I'm just so mentally weak now that I can't think straight. I see life as nothing but against me.

Fly to nowhere!!!!!!!!!

Right now I'm feeling disillusioned. As if I were a bird and flying to nowhere. Restless. Destination-less. A flight to nowhere. It seems that my life has become so stale. so stagnant. so motionless. so static. so routine. so uncertain. so unsure. i dun even know what i want. what do i really want in life? i felt i have been wasting my life for something that is impossible. love. a gay love, that is.

well, i just cried while writing this post while listening to Agnes Monica's 'Teruskanlah'. why i can't be happy just like any other gays who are happily attached? i know this cinta is luar biasa. bukan cinta biasa. but i need to love and be loved. but i'm seem outta luck.

Not your average joe!

It's been a while since my last update kan. Anyway, bukannya busy sangat pun cuma tak ada masa or more appropriately, malas nak update blog. maybe i should create twitter instead. ada ke followers? I dun think so. more like a twitter yg syok sendiri. anyway, i'm still single as usual since my last update in August. with regular shags. dating. that keeps me going. and also i just got 2 nieces; alyah and dania. bestnya! dah lama tak ada anak buah perempuan.

for my lovelife, i masih baik dgn my ex. I'm not sure whether both of us have feelings for each other. but we still keep in touch. u even buka puasa sama dulu a few days before raya. then we jumpa for late night drinks. he went out with a model ok rite now (so he says lah). so who am i to compete. but i kinda bumped that he went out clubbing regularly. he even took drugs occasionally and drinking alcohols. so, i guess since i dun do all those things, we are so NOT getting back together.

speaking of model and hunks, this guy,Imran from tagged said hi to me and i remembered him so well since he is so cute. tall. fair. like a dream boat. of course we had sex when we met a few years back. too bad that he's got a bf already. but i wish he was my bf.

which brings me to the question. why can't an ordinary guy like me an average joe have a hunk as their bf? Why does a hunk have to be with a hunk too? susah kan. the world is not fair. kadang2 aku makan hati tengok gay couple yg sama hunky. why can't it happen to me? i'm not a typical average joe. i want the beautiful things in life too. i want a hunky bf too. but why no hunks want me?

Why?

Melilau 4

5 Aug
Jumpa Rita and Zalina, my ex colleagues kat MEPS dulu. Rita dah lama tak jumpa Zalina. So, that's why kitorang plan nak get together. best catching up ngn diorang. Even if short tapi best. tapi aku suspect Zalina ada krisis dgn Pita' dan Suzie. Coz everytime I asked her the question, dia mcm nak mengelak. True enuff. Memang diorang tak baik. Memang shocking tau. We'll talk about that later since I juz met Suzie and Pita' tadi (11 Aug).

6 Aug
Shag Boy. Dah lama tak main ngn Boy. main tengah malam tau. Hehehe! lepas main, ada kete block my car. nasib baik kete tu tak put hand brake. so, kena minta tlg Boy tolakkan. Sorry Boy. Cek cut kat muka boy. Hehehe!!!

7 Aug
Went to see R kat umah dia kat Tmn OUG. datang tengah malam tau. Sampai tersesat. padahal dekat aje umah dia ngn umah aku. dia putih tinggi. badan just nice. nice axx. dia tanya sama ada aku pegi gym ke coz tangan muscular tapi aku cakap aku tak pi. juz buat sit up and push up. itu aje. dia suruh aku jadi his fxxx buddy. aku cakap iya mcm acuh tak acuh. layan je. about 1 hour gak lah. reached home almost 2am. so, tido lambatlah gamaknya. btw, dia pakai red thong. ayooo. so sexy! aku siap cium thong dia.. fetish nampak.

8 Aug
Ada team building kat Putrajaya. The morning session was boring. The evening one was better since ada amazing race. quite physical. since dlm team tu, aku yg fit (perasan tau) so terpaksa buat all those physical activities. memang tiring. malam tu memang aku passed out. penat giler. terus telan panadol muscle and pain before tido awal ard kul 11.

9 Aug
Shag K from Sentul around 10am. Dah umah line clear coz my sister tak ada umah. Oklah. Tapi dia a bit kayu. mcm anak mami sikit. kesian dia kena jalan kaki dari LRT to my house. Tapi aku drove him back later to lrt.

Then, went out on a date with M, budak Putrajaya Precinct 9 kat Pavilion. Dia bi. So, aku mcm tak berapa nak layan coz bagi aku, org bi ni tak leh buat decision or simply confused. prinsip aku senang aje, you are either gay or straight. no in between. sama gak spt life, you either choose to do A or B. no such thing as do both. It's like u either go to heaven or hell. No tengah2. Boleh gitu? I dun think so.

Melilau 3

30 July
Jumpa Z kat Shah Alam Section 2. Z ni ok. Cute gak. anak ikan. dia stay kat klang. But memandangkan aku tak biasa sgt area klang so aku suruh dia jumpa aku kat shah alam. then later aku sent him to klang. he was OK. cukup sifat. lebih kurang tinggi aku. suka main futsal. wow, i'm impressed. sesuai sgt. suka bf yg sporty mcm tu. kitorang dinner kat kedai kopi section 2. dia tak makan. ayoo. diet ke? pas dinner. masa aku masuk keta, dia dah mula buang tebiat. kissing segala. touching my 'thing'. pokoknya, dah ghairah ya amat. so, we went to a dark parking area. dia BJ aku. then, i have to sent him home coz dah 11ish. dlm keta, dia kissed me and kete sebelah nampak kitorang kiss. siap tengok2 kitorang lagi tu. kitorang tergelak aje. Actually, dia stay dkt ngn area umah Amin.

2 Aug
Tgk harry potter dgn Z kat Times Square. i picked him up at KL Sentral. aku hangin sekejap coz dia lambat sampai. pastu punya lah lawak aku tak tau yg aku pakai baju terbalik. nasib baik dia perasan. nasib baik aku masih lagi dlm keta. kalau kat luar, matilah org gelak kat aku. so, masa kat parking kat times square, aku pun tukar kedudukan baju. masa buka baju dlm keta tu nasib baik org tak ada. dia siap peluk aku lagi. dia dah mula ghairah. ayoo. siap gigit my nipple. ewww! too much info.

3 Aug
Aku MC hari ni. Konon2 sakit ler. Sakit tipu... Sempat lagi shag J, mamat Tasik Selatan around 3ish.

Melilau 2

Ni nak cite pasal apa yg aku buat since balik Redang. Aku balik dari Redang on Saturday 25 July. Next day, 26 July, aku ada kuar date ngn A kat Pavilion around 1ish. So, kitorang terus had lunch kat Old Town. Dia ok lah. Putih. Tinggi. very stylo. So, itu yg aku malas pi Pavilion coz i'm not stylish at all. Our conversation was ok lah. He likes traveling. very articulate. masa kitorang tgh makan tu, ada mamat cina ni asyik check us out. Hello!!!! That guy had the nerve to check us out. Dahlah dia kuar dgn some girls and one kid. Bisex ke! I dun do bi guy, ok.

Next day, 27 July, shag dengan T. Jumpa dia kat lrt Bukit jalil. very young anak ikan. 19yo. tu. muka pun baby face lagi. yummy. cuma dia a lil bit hairy waist down. memandangkan katil aku patah so terpaksa buat kat dlm bilik air and on the floor. lepas shag kat bilik air, kitorang just lepak kat living room around 7ish. foreplay ler... tengah foreplay tu. tiba2 terdengar main door punya grill ada org buka. alamak my sister dah balik. nasib baik tak kantoi. kitorang terus sambung kat dlm bilik. another round. then lepak then terus dinner and sent him to the lrt. kitorang makan sate kot kat awan besar. masa kat awan besar tu ada abg2 gayah senja check us out. hellloooooo!

Melilau 1

Sorry guys. Today aku post blog awal sikit. Coz boring gila kat ofis ni. 2 of my officemates tak ada. Jantan tu sakit mata. MC dua hari. Pompuan tu plak ada training 3 hari. Khamis baru balik. Mamat sorang lagi tu busy dgn data analysis dia tu. Ayooo!!!! Aku tak campur sgt dgn bebudak in my team. Tak kuasa nak campur. Big boss, GM, tak ada pulak. So, a lil bit relax today. Rasa mcm nak chow aje post lunch. Tengok wayang ke. have a quickie. melilau. macam tak biasa lah pulak kan.

Speaking of which, sepatutnya aku tengok wayang once a week tapi last week tak tgk apa2 pun. The last was the week before. Harry Potter. Cite dia ok lah. Tak se best previous movies. Mcm ada kureng garam dan gula sikit. Rasa mcm nak tengok The Proposal. I would so do Ryan Reynolds. He's not only hot. Hot body. Tapi funny. Ayooo. Kalau dapat, gerenti tak cari lain. Plus, dah lama tak tengok Sandra Bullock on big screen since Miss Congeniality. She was hilarious in that movie.

And seharusnya G.I.Joe. Channing Tatum is just so hot. He was a former model. He was skinny back then. Tapi i can't get my eyes off him since 'She's the man'. Ayooo. He's juz so yummy i wanna eat him. Then, 'Step Up', the movie was OK lah. But he's got moves. I luv who's got grooves. he can go groovy with me anytime baby. Kalau given a choice between Ryan and Channing, i have to say Ryan kot coz he's funnier than Channing. Sorry Channing. I need a guy yg kelakar juga coz life kena chill. Tak leh serious sangat. So, Ryan can light up my gloomy day anytime. Hehehe!!!!

Me and movie stubs (Part 1)

Lately ni aku gila kumpul movie stubs. Entah. Maybe because boring kot. That's why lah I found this weird hobby. Hehehe!!!! At least i can keep track of the movies that I have watched. Apa kata kita buat rundown on the movie stubs by months? let's!!!

Dec 2008

3 movies:

1. IP Man (24 Dec) (HK) (Donnie Yeap) (My rating: 4.5/5. Action choreography superb!)

2. Bedtime Stories (28 Dec) (USA) (Adam Sandler) (My rating: 3/5. Typical Adam!)

3. Bolt (28 Dec) (USA) (Animated) (My rating:4/5. So sweet!)

Aku suka tengok back-to-back movies. 28hb tu aku tengok 2 movies kat GSC Pavilion.

Jan 2009

4 movies:

1. The spirit (3 Jan) (USA) (Scarlet Johanson) (My rating: 1/5. Mcm hampeh!)

2. Yes Man (12 Jan) (USA) (Jim carey) (My rating:3/5. OK lah.)

3. Maut (19 Jan) (Msia) (Que haidar) (My rating: 3.5/5. An eye-opening movie!)

4. Underworld: Rise of the lycans (22 Jan) (USA) (My rating:3/5. OK lah.)

Feb 2009

3 movies:

1. Ong Bak 2 (5 Feb) (Thai) (My rating: 3/5. Ok lah)

2. Geng (13 Feb) (Msia) (My rating:3.5/5. I'm proud to be msia. Best. My anak buah pun suka).

3. Geng (21 Feb)

Pulau Redang trip 23 to 25 Jul

Hi Uols! Jangan jealous. That's me. Basking in the sun kat Pulau redang. The sand is so white and the scenery is best giler. Laut dia punya lah cantik. So blue so green. Ni kat atas aku posing kira2 perasan Aruba Next Top Model lah ni. The very the not so Sports Illustrated. Posing maut punya pasal. Seperti kata Tyra, "FIERCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!". Berangan sekejap. Yang penting aku dapat release tension dari keje. yay! Aku stay kat redang pelangi resort.

HOLAHEIIII

Waddup people? Sorry dah lama tak update my blog. Been busy with work. Speaking about work. It is so crazy. And literally, everyday without fail ada at least 1 meeting. Aku pening coz too many meeting. Camne keje nak jalan? That's why they call TM - tempat meeting.

Jumpa kawan2:
1.22 June: Zalina, my ex colleague kat MEPS at KL Sentral, Sooka Sentral around 6ish. Dah lama tak jumpa dia. can't believe rambut dia beruban dah. ayooo girl - please take good care ya. I miss the ever pretty Zalina.
2. 24 June: Shanice, Shamini and Izan at Food Court, KLCC around 7ish. Shanice dah put on weight and dress conservatively ever since she's got married. Shamini in the midst of getting a divorce. Izan is still trying to have a baby. Miss Uols.

Quickie:
1. 25 June: Pyan masseur at my home around 12ish.

Date:
1. 26 June, 2 Jul: Wan at Shah Alam, Sec 7.
2. 29 June: Q at menara celcom.
3. 13 Jul: Han at Precinct 18.

Shag:
1. 30 June: Ril at Putrajaya.
2. 3 Jul: Faz at my home.

Can't wait to go to Redang.

Aku tak percaya cinta (Episod 2)

Ni sambung dari posting dulu.

Thanks Lazyf for the comment. Maybe you are partly true. Maybe ada guy yang believe in love. Percaya pada cinta. Setia kasih pada cinta. But I have learned from my experience and the guys yang I pernah keluar for dating that they don't really actually look for love even if they said so in the first place. I chatted with one guy at YM yesterday. It was a very interesting conversation.

Imagine he's got 15 bfs from his age of 16 till 24. That's 8 years. Wow. Can a person have multiple bfs at any one time? macamana dia nak share the love? Which one should get more love from him? But having many bfs at any one time does it mean you that you are undecisive? Entah lah. I dun want to be judgmental etc but I can'?t share my love with multiple persons at any one time. Hey, i can't even have one bf. Ini kan pulak 15 bfs... What was I thinking?

Probably it's more lust than love. Macam mudah sangat. Seperti menukar baju. I can never be like that. I need to focus on one person to give all my love.

AKU TAK PERCAYA CINTA

Aku dah tak percaya cinta.
Cinta plu semuanya absurd.
Buang masa.
Tak ada hasil.
Ada ke plu yang percaya cinta sekarang ni?
Semua cinta plu berasaskan nafsu aje.
Superficial. Memandang paras rupa.

Aku dah bosan.

Baik aku single lagi bagus dan tidak mencari cinta.

Fuck love.

Nicole Linkletter Cycle 5 ANTM winner!

Nicole Linkletter is the 5th winner of ANTM. I dah agak she could win coz she is just so cute and edgy and high fashion and that fierce catwalk. Nicole is from North Dakota and she was in the bottom two twice and surprisingly, she never won any challenges. She has appeared in a few magazines termasuklah cover for Cleo Malaysia for Most Eligible Bachelor April 2009 issue. Among the magazines that she has been featured on:

1. Apple Daily

2. More Magazine

3. Elle Magazine Singapore

4. Marie Claire malaysia may 2009

5. T3 Singapore Magazine

6. Vanidades

7. Elle

8. women's health and fitness

9. Golf for women

10. Elle Girl

11. In Touch

12. Celebrity Living

13. People

Her body is tailor-made for high fashion. She is now signed with a few modelling agencies like Nous Management in LA and Diva Models in Singapore.

A round-up of who was eliminated first till last: Ashley, Ebony, Cassandra (quit the show), Sarah, Diane, Coryn, Kyle, Lisa, Kim, Jayla, Bre, Nik.

3 of my favourite photos are; Nicole's Bollywood shoot, Kim's crazy shoot, and Nik's couture shoot

3 of my worst photos: Ebony, Kim's super hero shoot, and Sarah's running away from Ms J

Waddup!

Sorry peeps coz it's been days since my last post. Busy lah. Atau pun looks like busy (LLB). Hehehe! There's nothing much happened to me since last Friday (28 May). I did go out for a date with a guy, A on Sunday. We watched Night at the museum 2 at Pavilion KL. He was ok. But definitely no spark. I am very much in need of a spark. The last time I felt I have a spark was with F but it turned out to be a "NO SPARK" at all. Bummer!

So, I have definitely moved on with my life. Forgotten about F altogether. I have even put ** next to his name. FYI, whenever I put ** to a guy's name, it denotes that:
1. I have met the guy but wished not to meet him again.
2. We have no spark
3. I had sex with him but would never do it with him again. In short, my ONS (one night stand).
4. He's an absolute psycho or nutjob.
5. He's not my taste
6. He used to be my ex bf.
7. He rejected me.
8. The worst sex ever or one of the forgettable sex ever.
9. He's a money boy.
10. he stopped contacting me after our first date.

GOOD FRIDAY!

Hi peeps! Don't confuse the title with the usual Good Friday that we all know. Sebenarnya, today is so good that it really made my day (which normally is a dull day as the day goes by for the past 2 weeks here in my new workplace). Why? Coz hari ni for the first time i saw lots of hunks kat sini. From 8.30am till now (11.02am), ada at least 4 hunks (of my taste lah) yg i'm drooling over.

OMG! Now they motivated me to love my newworkplace. Love maybe a lil bit overrated. Let's just put like instead. The 1st 3 guys i noticed kat open cafe area. The 1st one was a lil bit abang2. I think nama dia Z... Tall. Nice long legs. He looks so good in jeans. Cute goatee. Nice spiky hair. Shall i go on? Butt... not so nice coz probably dia dah kawin kot judging from his appearance. But who cares.

The second guy was his staff. Maybe chinese but i'm not sure. He could me 'chinese-look' malay. Chiselled look with good bone structure. Nice fit body in all the right places. Yummy! The 3rd guy was a malay twink. very tall. lanky. wearing jeans. nice bun. Did i say the 2nd guy has a nice bun too? Hehehe! Nice complexion. The last guy was in the same lift with me. he smells so good. tall. definitely love music. clean cut kinda guy.

To sum up, today is just a reckoning day lah. It uplifts my spirit and enlightens my mood. Any more hunks? Well, we just have to wait and see, don''t we......

TERUSKANLAH!

Hidup kena teruskan. Nasib baik aku dah dapat kerja setelah 4 bulan menganggur. Oklah. Janji ada kerja tetap dan gaji tetap. Apa2 pun aku dah mula kerja 18 Mei lepas tapi yang tak bestnya gaji bulan ni dapat bulan depan. Kena kuar duit saving lah gamaknya. At the same time, aku masih teruskan business part time aku:
1. One drop perfumes
2. Ezy mobile (SMS business)
3. Public mutual fund (unit trust)
So, kalau sesiapa nak beli my product / service, sila lah hubungi aku kat:
HP: 012 248 2356
email: fendi6@yahoo.com

Apa kata kita buat countdown what happened to me atau benda yang aku buat from 1 May hingga 15 May?
1 May - Birthday Akmal yang ke 10. Tak sempat balik Alor Gajah coz esok ada exam Public Mutual Fund.

2 May - Exam Public Mutual Fund. Aku pass. Yay! I am now a certified unit trust consultant.

3 May - Went for a date with Irwan at Midvalley around 6pm at Dome. Rasanya dia macam tak taste kat aku. Biasalah kerja dahsyat kat Petronas. Aku dah agak most staff Petronas agak kekwat dan berlagak. Ya lah. Gaji banyak. Bonus banyak. Mestilah berlagak.

4 May - Shagged Gr Shah around 1am.

6 May - Shagged Gr Plsf..me around 6pm. He said I have a nice cxxx. And he love my fxxx.

7 May - Went out with Ta at Times square. Tengok cite wolverine. Pastu shagged faiz kat Bluewave Hotel Shah alam later that night.

8 May - Lunch dengan Yus. Pastu pi amik offer letter. Date with Edie at Midvalley. Another date yg tak menjadi. Aku selalu bad luck lah. budak ni cute. tapi of course dia nak yg hot.

10 May - Celebrate Mother's Day. Bought my mum a bag.

11 May - Celebrate birthday Ana Marina (my BFF). Beli kek utk dia and bagi one drop perfume as gift.

12 May- Shagged Gr charm kat Belimbing High around 11am. 2 round ok. Sambil tengok porn kat TV. The apartment is great. Bila lah aku leh dapat stay in my own apartment?

14 May - date with Farish at Alamanda. Ok lah. Tapi dia not my taste. But we remain friends.