Ada apa dengan Cheese?

Cheese? I'm not referring to cheese. But i'm referring to Chinese guys. Hehehe!!! Lately, I have the hots for Chi guys. I dunno why. Maybe it's a sign. Maybe 2010 is about changing my taste buds. Maybe i shud taste other food other than belacan. I shud try dim sum. Probably I shud try dating guys other than Malay guys. Especially since I got my hearts broken twice by 2 Malay guys (my 2 exes).

Of coz I did have sex with Chi guys before. And that's about it. Purely sexual. Nothing much. I should consider dating Chinese-looking Malay guys also. Yup. Why not? I surely made a lovely and unique couple especially since I look so brown and my partner looks so fair. As in F&B - fair and brown. Hehehe!!! Berangan lah pulak. So far, I have no prospects. No calon. The Chi guy whom I dated last week tu pun macam tak menjadi.

Well, I dunno why I like Chi guy. Probably the skin. Fair vs. Brown. Or probably because of the Muhibbah thing. Very 1 Malaysia ok. Or probably because of the commitment thing. My friend told me that Chi guys are more committed more than the Malays coz he did have a Chi bf before this. I dunno. Well, I just have to wait and see then. See who will be my new bf?

Only time will tell.

Haven't met him yet!!!

It's been a while since I went out on a date with a guy. Yesterday, I met a Chinese guy at KL Sentral. He's 38yo. Cute. Look young for his age. very fair. Stylo. About the same height as me. It felt awkward at first. But we managed to get along pretty well. But that's all about it. I guess that's the issues of every first date. You will never know whether the date would turn out great, good, or bad, or worst.


I am quite 'season' when it comes to dating. Having met a number of people on a date. But there's always expectation whenever you go out on a date. You expect the date to be perfect. But, in reality, most of the dates are not. far from perfect. I'm not sure how much longer I would be dating. Or be in this dating game. Am I too old for it? Maybe. Am I tired of doing it? Maybe not coz I'm the type of guy who always bounced back from any misadventures or any unfortunates.

I will be doing it. Until I have found him. For now, I haven't met him yet.

Aku bosan

It's been a while since my last post. Lama betul. My last post was in Nov 2009. What happened to me since then? Well, i'm still single and not necessarily sane. Have a lil bit of amnesia from time to time. Lost weight a lil bit. Date-less. What else? Not rich yet. still struggling with my life, my career, my love life. Still feel like a loser. Why i can't be like other people who have everything.

They have a wonderful and loving partner. They have a good career. I seem to be run out of luck. Even the ugliest of the fags can have a cute boyfriend, why can't I? Why????????????? My career seemed to be on a downhill. I have never been demotivated ever. My creative flairs are of no use. People hate me for being outspoken or at least giving a good idea. Takkan nak makan gaji buta?

I dunno what to do. I dun even have people asking me out for a date. Or even getting to know more about me. Or wanting to know me even more. Or even asking me out for a drink or coffee. All I get was sexual demands. More sexual demands. I'm not sick of sex. But too much sex would do me no good for finding a relationship. I can never have relationship with the regular shag buddies. It's just not in my book.

Aku bosan. I'm tired of this life that I am in. I'm afraid i will do drastic measure. I've been known to do unpredictable things. I dun want to do a stupid thing (s) just because I frustrated with life. God, help me please. Give me strength to face the challenges ahead. I'm just so mentally weak now that I can't think straight. I see life as nothing but against me.