Sunday, November 15, 2009
Fly to nowhere!!!!!!!!!
well, i just cried while writing this post while listening to Agnes Monica's 'Teruskanlah'. why i can't be happy just like any other gays who are happily attached? i know this cinta is luar biasa. bukan cinta biasa. but i need to love and be loved. but i'm seem outta luck.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Not your average joe!
for my lovelife, i masih baik dgn my ex. I'm not sure whether both of us have feelings for each other. but we still keep in touch. u even buka puasa sama dulu a few days before raya. then we jumpa for late night drinks. he went out with a model ok rite now (so he says lah). so who am i to compete. but i kinda bumped that he went out clubbing regularly. he even took drugs occasionally and drinking alcohols. so, i guess since i dun do all those things, we are so NOT getting back together.
speaking of model and hunks, this guy,Imran from tagged said hi to me and i remembered him so well since he is so cute. tall. fair. like a dream boat. of course we had sex when we met a few years back. too bad that he's got a bf already. but i wish he was my bf.
which brings me to the question. why can't an ordinary guy like me an average joe have a hunk as their bf? Why does a hunk have to be with a hunk too? susah kan. the world is not fair. kadang2 aku makan hati tengok gay couple yg sama hunky. why can't it happen to me? i'm not a typical average joe. i want the beautiful things in life too. i want a hunky bf too. but why no hunks want me?
Why?
Monday, August 10, 2009
Melilau 4
Jumpa Rita and Zalina, my ex colleagues kat MEPS dulu. Rita dah lama tak jumpa Zalina. So, that's why kitorang plan nak get together. best catching up ngn diorang. Even if short tapi best. tapi aku suspect Zalina ada krisis dgn Pita' dan Suzie. Coz everytime I asked her the question, dia mcm nak mengelak. True enuff. Memang diorang tak baik. Memang shocking tau. We'll talk about that later since I juz met Suzie and Pita' tadi (11 Aug).
6 Aug
Shag Boy. Dah lama tak main ngn Boy. main tengah malam tau. Hehehe! lepas main, ada kete block my car. nasib baik kete tu tak put hand brake. so, kena minta tlg Boy tolakkan. Sorry Boy. Cek cut kat muka boy. Hehehe!!!
7 Aug
Went to see R kat umah dia kat Tmn OUG. datang tengah malam tau. Sampai tersesat. padahal dekat aje umah dia ngn umah aku. dia putih tinggi. badan just nice. nice axx. dia tanya sama ada aku pegi gym ke coz tangan muscular tapi aku cakap aku tak pi. juz buat sit up and push up. itu aje. dia suruh aku jadi his fxxx buddy. aku cakap iya mcm acuh tak acuh. layan je. about 1 hour gak lah. reached home almost 2am. so, tido lambatlah gamaknya. btw, dia pakai red thong. ayooo. so sexy! aku siap cium thong dia.. fetish nampak.
8 Aug
Ada team building kat Putrajaya. The morning session was boring. The evening one was better since ada amazing race. quite physical. since dlm team tu, aku yg fit (perasan tau) so terpaksa buat all those physical activities. memang tiring. malam tu memang aku passed out. penat giler. terus telan panadol muscle and pain before tido awal ard kul 11.
9 Aug
Shag K from Sentul around 10am. Dah umah line clear coz my sister tak ada umah. Oklah. Tapi dia a bit kayu. mcm anak mami sikit. kesian dia kena jalan kaki dari LRT to my house. Tapi aku drove him back later to lrt.
Then, went out on a date with M, budak Putrajaya Precinct 9 kat Pavilion. Dia bi. So, aku mcm tak berapa nak layan coz bagi aku, org bi ni tak leh buat decision or simply confused. prinsip aku senang aje, you are either gay or straight. no in between. sama gak spt life, you either choose to do A or B. no such thing as do both. It's like u either go to heaven or hell. No tengah2. Boleh gitu? I dun think so.
Melilau 3
Jumpa Z kat Shah Alam Section 2. Z ni ok. Cute gak. anak ikan. dia stay kat klang. But memandangkan aku tak biasa sgt area klang so aku suruh dia jumpa aku kat shah alam. then later aku sent him to klang. he was OK. cukup sifat. lebih kurang tinggi aku. suka main futsal. wow, i'm impressed. sesuai sgt. suka bf yg sporty mcm tu. kitorang dinner kat kedai kopi section 2. dia tak makan. ayoo. diet ke? pas dinner. masa aku masuk keta, dia dah mula buang tebiat. kissing segala. touching my 'thing'. pokoknya, dah ghairah ya amat. so, we went to a dark parking area. dia BJ aku. then, i have to sent him home coz dah 11ish. dlm keta, dia kissed me and kete sebelah nampak kitorang kiss. siap tengok2 kitorang lagi tu. kitorang tergelak aje. Actually, dia stay dkt ngn area umah Amin.
2 Aug
Tgk harry potter dgn Z kat Times Square. i picked him up at KL Sentral. aku hangin sekejap coz dia lambat sampai. pastu punya lah lawak aku tak tau yg aku pakai baju terbalik. nasib baik dia perasan. nasib baik aku masih lagi dlm keta. kalau kat luar, matilah org gelak kat aku. so, masa kat parking kat times square, aku pun tukar kedudukan baju. masa buka baju dlm keta tu nasib baik org tak ada. dia siap peluk aku lagi. dia dah mula ghairah. ayoo. siap gigit my nipple. ewww! too much info.
3 Aug
Aku MC hari ni. Konon2 sakit ler. Sakit tipu... Sempat lagi shag J, mamat Tasik Selatan around 3ish.
Melilau 2
Next day, 27 July, shag dengan T. Jumpa dia kat lrt Bukit jalil. very young anak ikan. 19yo. tu. muka pun baby face lagi. yummy. cuma dia a lil bit hairy waist down. memandangkan katil aku patah so terpaksa buat kat dlm bilik air and on the floor. lepas shag kat bilik air, kitorang just lepak kat living room around 7ish. foreplay ler... tengah foreplay tu. tiba2 terdengar main door punya grill ada org buka. alamak my sister dah balik. nasib baik tak kantoi. kitorang terus sambung kat dlm bilik. another round. then lepak then terus dinner and sent him to the lrt. kitorang makan sate kot kat awan besar. masa kat awan besar tu ada abg2 gayah senja check us out. hellloooooo!
Melilau 1
Speaking of which, sepatutnya aku tengok wayang once a week tapi last week tak tgk apa2 pun. The last was the week before. Harry Potter. Cite dia ok lah. Tak se best previous movies. Mcm ada kureng garam dan gula sikit. Rasa mcm nak tengok The Proposal. I would so do Ryan Reynolds. He's not only hot. Hot body. Tapi funny. Ayooo. Kalau dapat, gerenti tak cari lain. Plus, dah lama tak tengok Sandra Bullock on big screen since Miss Congeniality. She was hilarious in that movie.
And seharusnya G.I.Joe. Channing Tatum is just so hot. He was a former model. He was skinny back then. Tapi i can't get my eyes off him since 'She's the man'. Ayooo. He's juz so yummy i wanna eat him. Then, 'Step Up', the movie was OK lah. But he's got moves. I luv who's got grooves. he can go groovy with me anytime baby. Kalau given a choice between Ryan and Channing, i have to say Ryan kot coz he's funnier than Channing. Sorry Channing. I need a guy yg kelakar juga coz life kena chill. Tak leh serious sangat. So, Ryan can light up my gloomy day anytime. Hehehe!!!!
Friday, August 07, 2009
Me and movie stubs (Part 1)
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Pulau Redang trip 23 to 25 Jul
Sunday, July 19, 2009
HOLAHEIIII
Jumpa kawan2:
1.22 June: Zalina, my ex colleague kat MEPS at KL Sentral, Sooka Sentral around 6ish. Dah lama tak jumpa dia. can't believe rambut dia beruban dah. ayooo girl - please take good care ya. I miss the ever pretty Zalina.
2. 24 June: Shanice, Shamini and Izan at Food Court, KLCC around 7ish. Shanice dah put on weight and dress conservatively ever since she's got married. Shamini in the midst of getting a divorce. Izan is still trying to have a baby. Miss Uols.
Quickie:
1. 25 June: Pyan masseur at my home around 12ish.
Date:
1. 26 June, 2 Jul: Wan at Shah Alam, Sec 7.
2. 29 June: Q at menara celcom.
3. 13 Jul: Han at Precinct 18.
Shag:
1. 30 June: Ril at Putrajaya.
2. 3 Jul: Faz at my home.
Can't wait to go to Redang.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Aku tak percaya cinta (Episod 2)
Thanks Lazyf for the comment. Maybe you are partly true. Maybe ada guy yang believe in love. Percaya pada cinta. Setia kasih pada cinta. But I have learned from my experience and the guys yang I pernah keluar for dating that they don't really actually look for love even if they said so in the first place. I chatted with one guy at YM yesterday. It was a very interesting conversation.
Imagine he's got 15 bfs from his age of 16 till 24. That's 8 years. Wow. Can a person have multiple bfs at any one time? macamana dia nak share the love? Which one should get more love from him? But having many bfs at any one time does it mean you that you are undecisive? Entah lah. I dun want to be judgmental etc but I can'?t share my love with multiple persons at any one time. Hey, i can't even have one bf. Ini kan pulak 15 bfs... What was I thinking?
Probably it's more lust than love. Macam mudah sangat. Seperti menukar baju. I can never be like that. I need to focus on one person to give all my love.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
AKU TAK PERCAYA CINTA
Cinta plu semuanya absurd.
Buang masa.
Tak ada hasil.
Ada ke plu yang percaya cinta sekarang ni?
Semua cinta plu berasaskan nafsu aje.
Superficial. Memandang paras rupa.
Aku dah bosan.
Baik aku single lagi bagus dan tidak mencari cinta.
Fuck love.
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
Nicole Linkletter Cycle 5 ANTM winner!
Nicole Linkletter is the 5th winner of ANTM. I dah agak she could win coz she is just so cute and edgy and high fashion and that fierce catwalk. Nicole is from North Dakota and she was in the bottom two twice and surprisingly, she never won any challenges. She has appeared in a few magazines termasuklah cover for Cleo Malaysia for Most Eligible Bachelor April 2009 issue. Among the magazines that she has been featured on:
Her body is tailor-made for high fashion. She is now signed with a few modelling agencies like Nous Management in LA and Diva Models in Singapore.
A round-up of who was eliminated first till last: Ashley, Ebony, Cassandra (quit the show), Sarah, Diane, Coryn, Kyle, Lisa, Kim, Jayla, Bre, Nik.
3 of my favourite photos are; Nicole's Bollywood shoot, Kim's crazy shoot, and Nik's couture shoot
3 of my worst photos: Ebony, Kim's super hero shoot, and Sarah's running away from Ms JWednesday, June 03, 2009
Waddup!
So, I have definitely moved on with my life. Forgotten about F altogether. I have even put ** next to his name. FYI, whenever I put ** to a guy's name, it denotes that:
1. I have met the guy but wished not to meet him again.
2. We have no spark
3. I had sex with him but would never do it with him again. In short, my ONS (one night stand).
4. He's an absolute psycho or nutjob.
5. He's not my taste
6. He used to be my ex bf.
7. He rejected me.
8. The worst sex ever or one of the forgettable sex ever.
9. He's a money boy.
10. he stopped contacting me after our first date.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
GOOD FRIDAY!
OMG! Now they motivated me to love my newworkplace. Love maybe a lil bit overrated. Let's just put like instead. The 1st 3 guys i noticed kat open cafe area. The 1st one was a lil bit abang2. I think nama dia Z... Tall. Nice long legs. He looks so good in jeans. Cute goatee. Nice spiky hair. Shall i go on? Butt... not so nice coz probably dia dah kawin kot judging from his appearance. But who cares.
The second guy was his staff. Maybe chinese but i'm not sure. He could me 'chinese-look' malay. Chiselled look with good bone structure. Nice fit body in all the right places. Yummy! The 3rd guy was a malay twink. very tall. lanky. wearing jeans. nice bun. Did i say the 2nd guy has a nice bun too? Hehehe! Nice complexion. The last guy was in the same lift with me. he smells so good. tall. definitely love music. clean cut kinda guy.
To sum up, today is just a reckoning day lah. It uplifts my spirit and enlightens my mood. Any more hunks? Well, we just have to wait and see, don''t we......
Saturday, May 23, 2009
TERUSKANLAH!
1. One drop perfumes
2. Ezy mobile (SMS business)
3. Public mutual fund (unit trust)
So, kalau sesiapa nak beli my product / service, sila lah hubungi aku kat:
HP: 012 248 2356
email: fendi6@yahoo.com
Apa kata kita buat countdown what happened to me atau benda yang aku buat from 1 May hingga 15 May?
1 May - Birthday Akmal yang ke 10. Tak sempat balik Alor Gajah coz esok ada exam Public Mutual Fund.
2 May - Exam Public Mutual Fund. Aku pass. Yay! I am now a certified unit trust consultant.
3 May - Went for a date with Irwan at Midvalley around 6pm at Dome. Rasanya dia macam tak taste kat aku. Biasalah kerja dahsyat kat Petronas. Aku dah agak most staff Petronas agak kekwat dan berlagak. Ya lah. Gaji banyak. Bonus banyak. Mestilah berlagak.
4 May - Shagged Gr Shah around 1am.
6 May - Shagged Gr Plsf..me around 6pm. He said I have a nice cxxx. And he love my fxxx.
7 May - Went out with Ta at Times square. Tengok cite wolverine. Pastu shagged faiz kat Bluewave Hotel Shah alam later that night.
8 May - Lunch dengan Yus. Pastu pi amik offer letter. Date with Edie at Midvalley. Another date yg tak menjadi. Aku selalu bad luck lah. budak ni cute. tapi of course dia nak yg hot.
10 May - Celebrate Mother's Day. Bought my mum a bag.
11 May - Celebrate birthday Ana Marina (my BFF). Beli kek utk dia and bagi one drop perfume as gift.
12 May- Shagged Gr charm kat Belimbing High around 11am. 2 round ok. Sambil tengok porn kat TV. The apartment is great. Bila lah aku leh dapat stay in my own apartment?
14 May - date with Farish at Alamanda. Ok lah. Tapi dia not my taste. But we remain friends.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Hunk alert: Yama Carlos!
Film review: Merah itu cinta!
Monday, March 09, 2009
Apa cer terbaru aku?
25 Feb 09 - Went for 2nd interview with Megamobile at Midvalley Northpoint. Masa on the way nak ke lif tu, ternampak my colleagues kat ex co's Media Sales department tengah lepak kat luar, gossipping and smoking. Luckily, aku pakai spek hitam, diorang tak perasan. Kalau tak, harus aku diterjah. Ayoo!
26 Feb 09 - G4 Per came to meet me at warung kat area my apartment. We just chatted. He looks older than me though. Anyway, at one point, he was talking to his friends over the phone about 10 mins. That is just distracting. A complete no-no. Why would someone do that while going out for a date? That really puts me off. Anyway, he's not my type.
28 Feb 09 - The last day of Feb and I am still jobless and restless. Went to meet an old friend, A at Salak Tinggi. It's been 2 years since we last met. We shared stories. OKLah. Catching up to him. Biasalah budak MAS ni banyak cite and gossip. So dramatic lah kan. On the way nak balik kat salak Tinggi erl, there is one guy keep staring at me at the station. Siap2 senyum lagi. It was awkward coz I dun really smile to strangers coz tak biasa di'mengurat' in public . He's kinda cute though. So, macam tu je lah. Then, later kat Bandar tasik selatan, ada one Malay guy with his luggage (mcm balik dari traveling) stared at me twice. Huh!. Di mengurat again. Spt biasa. I mcm tu je lah. Dunno whether have to smile or not. later that night, watched Rasukan Ablasa at Mines with my friend, M. This is such a terrible movie. I should not have watched the movie. The movie is so bad in every aspects. Not scary at all. The bad acting. The bad make up. It's just bad news. People - please don't watch it.
6 Mar 09 - Watched Watchmen, another bad movie. It's just so slow moving kinda movie. I'm not familiar with the comics. The director should stick to 300 kinda movie. More shirtless bodylicious hunks, please.
7 Mar 09 - Balik kampung and celebrate birthday my anak buah, Adam yang kedua. Also celebrate birthday Adam's mum, my sister in law. Also celebrate birthday of my two sisters. A whole lot of birthday celebs. March ada 4 birthdays. Feb ada 1 aje. Apr ada 1 aje - my birthday. Hehehe!
Monday, March 02, 2009
Modelville: Naima rules!
Naima still modelled mostly for print works. Kahlen quits and become a bartender. What a waste! Keenyah - print works. Brittany - based in LA. Christina - print work. Michelle - turned straight, get married and had a kid. Tatiana - back to Hawaii. Tiffany-quits modelling. Rebecca - print work. Lluvy-print work. Brandy-quits. Sarah - featured in Stuff magazine. Brita - print work including a billboard.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Cerita aku post Valentine's Day
15.2.09. - Shagged G4 Bxxeyes R around 3ish. He was a 19yo virgin. I didn't know he's a virgin until we sealed the deal. OMG! But he thanked me heaps for giving him the most pleasurable and mind blowing sexperience. You know me... I AM the expert.
16.2.09 - Shagged Aln around 12ish. It was more like a quickie. It was OK. But he had a fetish for smelling used underwear. Ewww! So, i have no choice but to give him my underwear and u couldn't imagine the reaction on his face when he smelled it. It's like a kid getting a brand new toy. Kinky stuff!!! He likes to smell my armpit too. So, i let him smell it.
17.2.09 - Another lunch shag with G4 s... eri.... He has a nice smooth white ass. I had to bite it and I shagged him like nobody's business. In every position possible.
18.2.09 - Shagged masseur Arxx around 5ish. actually i really need a massage since my tangan kiri a bit lenguh2. This time I climaxed seperti gunung berapi yang memuntahkan lavanya. Dia pun terkejut tengok I cum seperti tu. What an explosion!!!!
19.2.09 - Interview with Mega.... at Mid Valley. It was OK. It is a small company but it's growing. The co is based in Singapore but overall I have a mixed reaction whether I would make the cut. We'll see!
20.2.09 - Dated Mj Aj around 4ish. He wasn't really my type but he is a nice guy. Young but matured.
22.2.09 - Dated Mj Eixxx around 4ish at Mid Valley. He just got back from gym. I can tell from his face that he's not into me. That's weird since he's the one who said hello to me at manjam, wanting to know me and all. People are weird you know especially the plu. He wants to ne a model or plans to lah. Well, sayonara. Bygones!
23.2.09 - Shagged Pinoy Guy, Marxxx around 9ish at an apartment nearby Amcorp Mall. It was NOT a good shag. I shagged him twice and I didn't climax at all. The whole shag was so uncomfortable that I juz want to end it soon. Oh what a disaster!
24.2.09 - Shagged G4 bxxeyes around 2ish.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Modelville: Eva the diva!
Cycle 3 returns with more dramas! More tantrums! A plus size contestant! And a diva i.e. Eva. Eva won this cycle and is the 1st black contestant to win the title. This also the first cycle to feature 2 black contestant as a Finalist. Cycle 3 has 14 contestants and the 1st cut saw the girls battling it out at Jamaica to do the Bikini shoot. Herewith are the girls with the first to be eliminated:
1. Magdalena (the 1st girl who got eliminated on the spot and not during judging)
2. Leah (plain Jane)
3. Julie (the first Indian contestant who wants to be a manufacturer. Duh!)
4. Kristi
5. Jennipher
6. Kelle (the girl with a monkey mouth)
7. Cassie (the bulimic.)
8. Toccara (the 1st plus size contestant)
9. Nicole
10. Norelle (the girl who stumbled in the runway).
11. Ann (the girl who mutilated Cassie's brownies "clean your shit")
12. Amanda (legally blind. Is she blind now? Dunno)
13. Yaya (the African sister)
Winner - Eva!
The catch-phrase of Cycle 3: Beauty in progress
The bitchiest contestant: Eva
The overseas destination: Tokyo, Japan.
The girl who won go-sees: Eva
The quirkiest: Amanda
The best photos: Eva's Covergirl shoot and Ford Mustang shoot, Amanda's rollerskates shoot and Japanese anime shoot.
The worst photos: Kelle's Nivea shoot, Ann's kimono shoot, Magdalena's bikini shoot.Post ANTM:
Eva acted in The Young and The Restless. Yaya acted in a movie along Antonio Banderas. Amanda still model and not blind yet (mmm). Ann did lots of print works. Norelle, Nicole, Cassie, Kelle, Jennipher, Kristi, Leah, Magdalena, Julie - stopped modelling. Toccara - has been featured in Vogue Italia. You go girl!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Modelville: ANTM Cycle 2!
The winner:
The girls went to Milan, Italy. The girls went for go-sees in motorbikes with hot Italian hunks. How cute! Yoanna won a contract with IMG Models, a fashion spread in Jane magazine, and cosmetic campaign with Sephora. Yoanna actually the oldest to win the title at 23 yo.
The losers:
Anna (the 1st to get eliminated. 1st plus size girl of ANTM history. A mum. Dia tak nak bogel, hence, she was kicked out. Too bad mama). Bethany (the busty contestant. She looks more like porn star than a model). Heather (3rd to get the cut. She's just so dull.) Jenascia (the girl who's overslept. She looked dazed and confused and too short for the industry). Xiomara (remember the picture where she looked like walrus wearing chiffon. That was an ugly pic.) Catie (the girl who is condemned for her hooker style dress.) Sara (the most heart-wrenching elimination. She deserved to stay rather than Camille). Camille (the bitchiest contestant of this Cycle. This is my signature walk, and it's the walk that's going to make me famous. Ayoo.. Very the statement. But i love her). April (overanalytical. Too bad, she's fierce. Plus, she fancied Nigel.) Shandi (the quirkiest contestant in this cycle). Mercedes (the underdog lupus contestant.)
Picture below: The winner (Yoanna). The bitch (Camille). The quirky (Shandi).
The best photos:
Yoanna (Beauty shot). April (Crouching tiger underwater shoot). Xiomara (Grace Jones).The worst photos:
Camille (the puffed lip). Xiomara (walrus). Heather.
Post ANTM:
Yoanna turned TV host. Mercedes is a spokesperson for Lupus foundation. Shandi left the industry. April pursued acting. Camille launched her own lingerie line called Lingeriewear. She strutted her 'famous' catwalk at some major runways. Sara did some print work for L'Oreal. Catie is now based in LA. Xiomara signed with Boss Models. Jenascia - back to be Hooters' girls. Heather - lost in oblivion and so were Bethany and Anna.