Happy!

Happy is a very wonderful thing that could happen to anyone. It makes one's life sparkling and full of joy. But are you really happy with your life? 100% sure. Am I happy? I think i'm happy but I'm not content. What the hell it means anyway? That means i'm not totally happy. I said I'm happy but essentially I'm not happy at all. It's really hard to content oneself. Everyone has their own way of sourcing for their happiness.

A friend of mine recently broke up with his bf. Both of them decided to call it quits after meeting the bf's parents. Normally, meet the parents implied a big step in any relationship. That means the parents somehow approved the relationship and not the other way around. That's kinda weird. It's supposed to be a first step towards any couple's happiness. Getting your ma and pa to approve your relationship.

Of course, my friend reacted pretty well at first with the break up. But i'm so shock that they decided to call it quit so soon. Such test of love should never be a hindrance if one were to persevere and have faith in the relationship. The thing with our society is that they still think leading a normal life would lead to everyone's happiness. It would make everyone happy.

Are they really happy? Do normal couple really happy? I beg to differ. If they are happy, why there are so many divorces now. If they are so happy, why do husbands and wives 'eat out' / makan luar? If they are so content with their normal life, why they neglect and abuse the kids? trust me, if you ask any married people now whether they are really happy with their life now, most of them would say maybe.

i dun care about their happiness or otherwise. i care about my own happiness. i wanna be happy. i want that kinda feeling when you are just contented with everything that you have. but i'm not. it's just so damned hard. I just wanna be happy!